november 28 - 5:42 am...at the moment...preparing to enter echo's terrain - days are filled with plenty...having dinner was excellent -plenty of family...i missed my family back home..they had a big one in window rock - i talked to mom and trish daily...they said my aunt marie and pat were there as well as ben's family; my uncle john - mom seem quite content with the annual moment though was fighting a ugly cold...and dad, i guess he wanted to rest...he was tired and still suffering from the wounds of much...i felt for him...and could only wish and pray he presses forward as he has done the last decades...i am in awe at what he has done for my sister's and i - he is quite the strength...something i found in my late grandmother, mary. trish was energetic talking about all the good fixings they prepared...and as expected...folks were asking about jr. she said sonjia is doing well too in las vegas - they had little dinner with her family..and told trish she had to get up by 4:30am to get to work...she works at vic secrets as a manager...she had to get there early to prepare for the wave of shoppers! our little get together had a similar setting though i missed mom's bread and some native foods! believe me - i could do anything for a piece of sheep meat wrapped in tortilla bread...hmm...carm's sister and her sister's friend came by...and the many kids! the 20 pounder sufficed! it came out nice and juicy...breanna came back on tuesday too! i picked her up at the airport...i was happy though i was still jolted on her gesture and actual move to relocate back to the valley and not finish up at ua....i was so upset though i can't really express only i dont want to repeat what we went through the last year ...its just so upsetting to see her momentum halt ...yet perhaps its 'my momentum' in her that needs to be removed and let her move on (minus me)...her mom supports her fully and thats good..at this time - i need to support her (even thought i think about the scholarships she will lose not to mention the big loan debt she will be in :(...what has led to this...are we relieving ourselves in our children's footsteps? i sure hope she find the inner strength to relize what all the talks were about...as a parent that is toughest to see...well for me it is...i wanted to do her best and get to a point where she will understand and become who she wants to be...i didn't want her to repeat what i;'ve been through because that was a rough road and a big challenge...it took plenty to get where i needed to be..i was a rez kid who went to big city and fell...then i went back to the rez to find myself and then i was ready...
oh yeah...we also celebrated trevor's birthday..i guess in the 'chaos', baby forget her son's birthday...so we wished him a birthday and ate a quick cake...i try not to forget birthdays! mom's birthday is next week and yeah there are plenty of bday(s) in between...breannna's birthday is next month too! i wonder what to get her... got to go...later rb
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