Dead Skin

August 29
Dead skin…at the bottom of the saguaro…going up camelback – this deck is good – goes hand down with my training schedule – which is x-training. What may be inviting and more of a momentum booster is the ‘drive’ to be here…put myself here –despite 113 degree temperature! Like I stated before, I would not put myself in a position where I knew the outcome would be disastrous…learning and growing up on the rez has taught me a few things on terrains…the last time I felt fear was jumping in the Aegean sea off the coast of Sifnos, Greece. Talk about helpless…June 13, 2000 summer Castro,Sifnos Greece. A few of us went down to the coastline to swim. It was very rocky and steep but we all manage to get there safely..it was exciting and a little intimidating. I had never jumped off the side of a cliff into saltwater before so my mind and body grew intense. Brett was the first to dive in…it looked simple, at least that was the way he made it look…I was up! My anticipation grew as well as my anxiety. Finally I dove in! once in…I surfaced well yet the waves were so intense and the water felt like a heavy medium…it was soooo different than a calm water or pool. The waves kept me bobbing up and down …a cycle keep me from getting to the rock edge where Brett was…I tried and tried to swim to his position..they toldme to relax…I saw my fear in my Brett’s eyes…I was like ‘oh shit’...finally I was able to float towards the rock edge…yet I was pull away from the rhythm of the waves…I got Brett’s reach yet now I was being pounded against the rocks…my body was so tired and muscles were done…my breath was probably recording about 180 bpm!!...finally the tall UA wildcat pulled me out…I lay there on the rocks thinking about what just happen…my body and leg covered in blood cause of all the abrasions and cuts…that was an intense moment...when up here...i think about those benchmarks...and how i will not place myself in again...therefore i know my threshold...which is pretty unique - yet rambunctiously foolish...boys will be boys -

btw...while coming down...i placed my foot on the rock...then all of a sudden i saw large chuckwalla...it scared the S*** out of me...made me fall and throw my bottle...then i came back asking if i can take its picture...was cool! chuckwalla and i one...rb

a t t a c k p l a n !

last night I ran fairly comfortably – I guess you also say fairly fashionably – I was sporting new gear. More specifically a new shirt from Endurance Rehab – I received a very nice light charcoal Asics shirt on Wednesday night from the team. I was excited to wear my new gear – my shield - our shield ! Angie came up to me this morning and asked what is the attack plan for fund raising – she has been very supportive from the dlr associates group…so supportive she is willing to assist by creating the raffle tickets and ready to request from vendors on a number of raffle items we need to raffle off…sounds very raffling! Navajo Nation Fair is in two weeks! I’m feeling much better knowing this week is coming to a conclusion – CREST has been submitted to all regulatory agencies! I am very happy to get that in the for reviews – my team did a great job pulling things together – it came down to the last second! rb

August 27 -

last night if not yesterday was very hectic...very scheduled! it was a time for sending /routing our construction documents to all regulatory agencies, A&P, and others -then i attended the Team Chances kickoff at Endurance Rehab in Scottsdale. In a way i barely got there...i think right at 6:00 pm - i just felt i was rushing throughout the day...and to make it more hectic, i hadn't sleep well and to be honest i did not sleep one bit...more on that later -

the Chances was fun and full of energy, probably because Andi is such a cool person...Melissa was right when she said that's a good coach. Andi will be our tormentor (I mean trainer) for the next few months getting us ready for the big race...actually we'll be running a number of races prior to Changs. All i know is i feel pretty lucky and privilege to be here and to be participating with this program - thank you A&P! i look forward to the track workouts and the long runs on saturdays...though i will have to change it up since my saturdays will packed with the Habitat builds...btw..today i got my contributor issue from Native Peoples Magazine - Yah! i actually forgot about that until i saw the issue (unreleased) on my desk...i was happy...too bad we did make the cover...maybe next one...got to go later - rb

T e a m C h a n c e s

a story unfolds...
actually this story has a beginning...much like these pages...there seems to be a beginning and a conclusion...yet there is no end to my story or anybody else. A&P,my business partners throughout the years, have asked i join their team with pursuits of raising money for Chances for Children...just recently i let them know my answer - Yes! they are great group not to mention talented runners...last year was pivotal as it culminated throughout the season to the start line...at then at echo canyon trailhead...at tempe town lake... i wonder what's next - rhythm + power

i look forward to the Chances running program -

rb

UA - new digs for Breanna

yesterday we took breanna down to UA! it was quite the day filled with good twists and good turns - all kinds of emotions were abound...none of them could ever dull the moment...i mean cmon, the day has come when we said our baby would be going off to a big university learning about the next level. i am so proud of her...her entire family has supported her since those days of cozy coupe driving, pouring powder all over her sister's head, playing basketball, etc. etc.! she has so much to offer. the world awaits you -

after leaving the place where we all grew in some manner, i felt a bit depressed - in a way i was already missing her...even after i told her i am just two hours away...the other day she expressed subtle emotions to me...we haven't connected like in quite some time and i was beginning to feel the magnitude of the dad-daughter relationship. as parents...we see our kids grow in our footsteps..i just want her to grow in better footsteps with a bright future -

RB

rb

08-15-71

08-15-71
You know when you plan and expect certainty to provide a familiar or so…surprises have a tendency to make the soul feel great with a hidden myst. On this day begin one’s line…obviously a famous one…well in my diary – yea!...before I describe our night with melanie...our dinner at olive and ivy was measured well—obviously we love chicken…the chicken meshed with a souring cleverness’ of mash potatoes as the foundation was impressive…our stage was soothed with nice upholstered seating –literally ! we finally got to sit in a more private-ish setting…and with pillows! The last time we dined here was with Erin, Denise, and other notable folks from New way! After dinner we strolled over the bridge to Estate House where we gravitated to the 2nd level deck by music…it seem like the music picked us up and brought us to the 2nd level out door setting - It was neat-o! nice sofas…with more pillows! Lydia was quite the hostess…I receive a text from mel saying she’ll be the devils martini at 10….so no rush…all good! The music was magnificent! The guy’s voice with an acoustic guitar was it…created a mode of relaxation…it was truly a treat! This is one of those surprises I was talking about…he really covered a few ‘cover’ songs well! Johnny cash, elvis, etc! all good…we even danced to one song…how fun…off to the devils martini…wow what a place…very hot…very sexy…mel was staged near the dance floor…in a booth…she was happy…gave her gift…and she was even more happier! We met her friends..all of sudden , friends became friends…it was fun talking, posing, dancing. ”…when I grow up I wanna be famous I wanna be a star…” fun being here ..full of surprises…I can see why DLR folks hung out here last year after the annual meeting…and we went to Carrie Underwood…oh well..that was a speculator night as tonight…mel is a good attorney friend my az state bar attorney! yea…architects and attorneys happy 29 J xoxo later…rb

g r e a s e r - (get that greaser!)

In 1989, I crashed my 1987 Shadow 750 motorcycle late in the evening - by plowing it straight into a horse on highway 191 Northeast Arizona – literally! From the intersection at Burnside, I accelerated from maybe 4 mph to 55 or 60 mph! It was dark with no moon! I spent most the late afternoon and evening in Ganado – later, I decided to head back to Chinle. I had a helmet which just happened to have a dark tinted visor – for day riding. At night – no way!!! So I was constantly lifting it every now and then…however I had to close it since the air was watering my eyes and the bugs felt like bullets hitting my face…so I would put it down! - I was definitely asking for trouble – a dark tinted face shield and the Dark of the Night do not mix! Let me be the first to tell you…

As I sped out of the intersection, I closed the shield - in an instant I saw a bunch of horses on the road so I swerved to the left misses them barely…remember I had the dark shield on my helmet down…AND THEN, as I came back to right side of the road…A black horse just happen to be centered in my lane…I saw in the split of a second the image of a horse and that was it…sometime later (not too sure the time lapsed), I was awaken by the hot pipes of my bike on my leg…apparently I hit the black horse dead center and we all flew 75 feet or so (police report) and l and bike landed in the middle lane…the horse landed off the road to the right…as I look up…I removed my helmet still pinned by my bike….i kick the bike off me…and continue looking up trying to grasp what just happened…I thought I was in the next world…I thought I saw the universe and how beautiful it was…at a moment I thought I had gone to the otherside…until a some hard lights and the sound of vehicle 1 feet from my head let me know I was alive and well-figured – but in the middle of the road in pitch black rez night!

…I just realized I had hit the horse which made me begin to feel nauseous more, and ready to pass out…before I literally was knocked out – however I felt strength come my way…I was thinking am I dead or am alive…it was the most severe, surreal moment.

In 2002 I shared this with students at Ganado High School during my Career Day Presentation since they asked all kinds of questions about me…soon they called me the ‘greaser’

g l i t t e r

august 7 friday @ paradise bakery...breakfast with my emotions...this partner is a monster...i am wondering about it reveals itself...its not so easy to leave things just as they are...yet maybe that needs to happen...


glitter

"don't deceive me
and please believe me
i only need your love

Black Horse Night

Black Horse Night – Tselani Cottonwood Rez...July 31 Friday
It was something else to be home and see relatives…some I have not see for quite some time...they were impressed with me…i am glad I helped my sister and her daughter…I worked very hard helping – and was able to run away to my fort; being there at night with the moon was the best…silence was needed…i use to play here with my cousin brothers when we were little…later I came back into the camp …I brought three horse home that night…their steeds made the dogs bark

Louisiana Red, Fuego Bistro, and Club Tropicana

July 25 Fuego Bistro, Rhythm Room, Phoenix AZ & Club Tropicana in Scottsdale

dinner was great! got the recommendation from Carm's Abbey...we are following her footsteps...now we head to the Room -
...in the presence of a living legend –louisiana red at the rhythm room...what power and grace. I was able to talk with Red for a few minutes. I introduced myself and he too..to my surprise he said he had some apache blood in him...i said look at us..“two indian boys“ he liked that...he said he didn’t wear his turquoise...later he and i sat for a photo and he added himself to my diary...see above! Plus he signed his newest record for me, Back to the Black Bayou.

Club Tropicana 12 a.m. - hot and sexy - music is awesome -