pain is reminder it was real....

i am fond of weirdness...or is just an honest emotion that is conflicting...why do i feel this way! one is the physical. -slowly i am healing from my marathon; i am coming to terms with the effort yet the manner in which i ran is still not fitting...and now the emotional part. my emotions have been hammered -though my actions from a previous continues to lay the groundwork for the daily, if not our daily cycle...what seemed normal is now branded as unwilling or ruthless...though certain is one thing...the pain is a reminder it was real. the future is coming. each movement of the sun is timeless...i wonder what it would really be like...soon i will be in a transition...perhaps more than one...fate....muse...fate will not control us...we will be victorious my friends...