Monday, January 31, 2011
pain is reminder it was real....
i am fond of weirdness...or is just an honest emotion that is conflicting...why do i feel this way! one is the physical. -slowly i am healing from my marathon; i am coming to terms with the effort yet the manner in which i ran is still not fitting...and now the emotional part. my emotions have been hammered -though my actions from a previous continues to lay the groundwork for the daily, if not our daily cycle...what seemed normal is now branded as unwilling or ruthless...though certain is one thing...the pain is a reminder it was real. the future is coming. each movement of the sun is timeless...i wonder what it would really be like...soon i will be in a transition...perhaps more than one...fate....muse...fate will not control us...we will be victorious my friends...
days of days - Jan 16
my race experience...Race day – day of days…jan 16-2011…diary
Who knows what the outcome could be or will be…unless one embarks the wonderful journey of pain, suffering, rejuvenation, and success - definitely a process; whatever I had or knew was simple mix with subtle emotions and the many…my body just a vehicle: at gun start…filled with so much adrenaline and excitement (so much energy contained)…it’s no wonder we do this..what a feeling –Team Chances at the start…corral 4; at times I could only hear my own thoughts pounding loudly with slight numb ; I could hear other folks too…looking at everybody’s face…a similar façade – maybe? I kept thinking about my race strategy; trying to keep smiles on….i am leaving good footprints – or least I remind myself I am …; my teammates were awesome; I really enjoy the concept of team…what a wonderful cast of supporters…we know, cause we all endure pretty much the same thing..pain, thoughts of stopping or whatever –however it’s our nature to keep going…finding a second wind…a truth to the madness; I felt this at mile 22; boy was I hurting; like i stated before, once everything is removed, all your running is the faith to believe and get it done..the will and determination to keep going – to not give up..
Back step; I ran great up to mile 11 was running with my wingman…mark –then out of nowhere my left knee cap pop! It never happened before; all of sudden my thoughts overcame me…I was like ‘no, not now!’ – I could not understand – I mean I trained for 20 great weeks..and to feel this weird pain was just fearful; and it was contagious; all of a sudden I was running on this thought after 13 miles (I think I was a 1:54 ½) – bummer..every now and then my left inner knee would flare up with this pin point pain…then I started to cramp up (hamstrings); on Indian school road…saw the family…mom came in from Albuquerque with my three nieces, and carm was there with bre and brandi…definitely a good sight…did give me a good boast even though I was hurting in the legs..they were able to give me some cytomax as well…I felt much better much and tried to run or develop a good rhythm like I was at mile 8; yet I was a mile 17-18, my body was being pushed – I think it was because I started out fast? Yet I felt very comfortable with the 3:45 pacers..hmm…so good I ran ahead of them..my breathing was good – it was my legs (left knee, hamstrings, and quads) – at mile 21ish..saw tim..mr camera man – he got me…hehe…going down hayden (my hood ) was so hard! Around mile 23ish..saw denise..now I had two great teammates running me down….it was so hard here…I wanted to stop but I was running on something..i could barely hear around me…just noise....i was in a totally different emotion; almost like camp pendelton but maybe worst or easy! If you want to know hard, or pain…this is it…at about mile 25, both my quads were cramped! I was running with them cramped! Talk about pain….yet I talk about not stopping through it….and running with a passion and with heart – that was me; seeking a truth
"Keep Believing & Keep Running!"
Who knows what the outcome could be or will be…unless one embarks the wonderful journey of pain, suffering, rejuvenation, and success - definitely a process; whatever I had or knew was simple mix with subtle emotions and the many…my body just a vehicle: at gun start…filled with so much adrenaline and excitement (so much energy contained)…it’s no wonder we do this..what a feeling –Team Chances at the start…corral 4; at times I could only hear my own thoughts pounding loudly with slight numb ; I could hear other folks too…looking at everybody’s face…a similar façade – maybe? I kept thinking about my race strategy; trying to keep smiles on….i am leaving good footprints – or least I remind myself I am …; my teammates were awesome; I really enjoy the concept of team…what a wonderful cast of supporters…we know, cause we all endure pretty much the same thing..pain, thoughts of stopping or whatever –however it’s our nature to keep going…finding a second wind…a truth to the madness; I felt this at mile 22; boy was I hurting; like i stated before, once everything is removed, all your running is the faith to believe and get it done..the will and determination to keep going – to not give up..
Back step; I ran great up to mile 11 was running with my wingman…mark –then out of nowhere my left knee cap pop! It never happened before; all of sudden my thoughts overcame me…I was like ‘no, not now!’ – I could not understand – I mean I trained for 20 great weeks..and to feel this weird pain was just fearful; and it was contagious; all of a sudden I was running on this thought after 13 miles (I think I was a 1:54 ½) – bummer..every now and then my left inner knee would flare up with this pin point pain…then I started to cramp up (hamstrings); on Indian school road…saw the family…mom came in from Albuquerque with my three nieces, and carm was there with bre and brandi…definitely a good sight…did give me a good boast even though I was hurting in the legs..they were able to give me some cytomax as well…I felt much better much and tried to run or develop a good rhythm like I was at mile 8; yet I was a mile 17-18, my body was being pushed – I think it was because I started out fast? Yet I felt very comfortable with the 3:45 pacers..hmm…so good I ran ahead of them..my breathing was good – it was my legs (left knee, hamstrings, and quads) – at mile 21ish..saw tim..mr camera man – he got me…hehe…going down hayden (my hood ) was so hard! Around mile 23ish..saw denise..now I had two great teammates running me down….it was so hard here…I wanted to stop but I was running on something..i could barely hear around me…just noise....i was in a totally different emotion; almost like camp pendelton but maybe worst or easy! If you want to know hard, or pain…this is it…at about mile 25, both my quads were cramped! I was running with them cramped! Talk about pain….yet I talk about not stopping through it….and running with a passion and with heart – that was me; seeking a truth
"Keep Believing & Keep Running!"
Thursday, January 6, 2011
team chances prep run sat. jan 8;
team run sat. jan 8...team prep at asu stadium...one last get-together before the show...20 weeks of training...that's what i put in...so bless me...let do this... my coach /great friend denise mavelle above at last month's fiesta bowl race...great momentum with this team...what nexts
Monday, January 3, 2011
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